Tryin to keep to friday post. ( Thurs would be better as Im about as lazy as you get on fridays ) Tired ace today. This weeks animation test is a baseball pitch study. Again tryin to keep things where I dont over think and let them happen for happiness sake.
A pick of my daughter, a photoshop landscape study, and of course a couple of sketches.
Im not gonna lie, half of me wants to stop this. ( the half that pretty much has been winning out my whole life )
Its crazy how emotions can change your perspective, positive or negative. Im accepting that Im uncomfortable with this and that I know in the grand scheme of things its alright to be so. When I take on something new , I notice that inner jerk hole says "Why are you tryin so hard? " What is this nonsense for ? "Your uncomfortable and how is this beneficial?" "Just keep to the sketching and leave it at that pal..Isnt that enough. You have no need to put this kinda effort into something you dont really make money off of. Be happy with where you are at..."
Jerk hole am I right?
A year ago I thought to balance my life out I had to scale down my art side and grow my fam side. And I noticed I was completely miserable. Depressed as all get out. Since then Ive realized that I didnt need to do that. I just need to go as hardcore with my fam as I do with my art. Perspective changed. Im much happier. (Theres a bit more to it than that and hope to gettin around to sharing it.)
So to inner jerk hole: thats why I need to do it. Because its the best part of me and thats what I want to give to my fam. So back up and let me do just that....
I know how you feel boss. It's a tough grind that we go through as artists. Everytime I see an awesome bg, I wanna tackle one myself and I struggle cuz it''s not my breadwinner. Keep doing what your doing good sir. It's always great to see.
Hmm...it sounds as if you're on your way to striking that beautiful balance between your responsibilities + passion. The tug-o-war shows that you care about both -- there's nothing 'jerk hole' about that!
<3
I'm glad to hear you're feeling happier lately, Mel. The last painting is so serene and refreshing, made me gawk a little!
As many other's here have said before, I know how you feel! I think it's awesome to see that you have such a drive to do art. Very inspiring, Mel. And also, you have such a cute daughter ^^
...you HULK SMASH it in the face and choke it to near asphyxiation with those lemons; proceed to power walk your way to the nearest ladder and if available play "You're the Best" by Joe Esposito.
Reflecting on how far you've come is always a good way to fuel some positive will power! Also every obstacle is a challenge, not an obstacle but an exercise.
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I know how you feel boss. It's a tough grind that we go through as artists. Everytime I see an awesome bg, I wanna tackle one myself and I struggle cuz it''s not my breadwinner. Keep doing what your doing good sir. It's always great to see.
This sounds familiar! I think we all have a jerk hole living inside us. I'm sure he must serve a purpose somewhere, but I have yet to discover where!
Anyway, great to see you posting again Mel, you're doing great! :D
Hmm...it sounds as if you're on your way to striking that beautiful balance between your responsibilities + passion. The tug-o-war shows that you care about both -- there's nothing 'jerk hole' about that!
<3
I'm glad to hear you're feeling happier lately, Mel.
The last painting is so serene and refreshing, made me gawk a little!
As many other's here have said before, I know how you feel! I think it's awesome to see that you have such a drive to do art. Very inspiring, Mel. And also, you have such a cute daughter ^^
When life/work gives you lemons...
...you HULK SMASH it in the face and choke it to near asphyxiation with those lemons; proceed to power walk your way to the nearest ladder and if available play "You're the Best" by Joe Esposito.
Reflecting on how far you've come is always a good way to fuel some positive will power! Also every obstacle is a challenge, not an obstacle but an exercise.
BLAAAARGH!!!
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